Silence, loneliness, first times, couse TIME DOESN'T FLY...

Today is not the first time I'am so far from home. But first time I'am alone. Yesterday mum and dad came here, my new home, then made sure home is Ok, and they have gone... This morning was the first time I woke up alone and felt loneliness deep inside of my heart. I was nearly cry. Too emotional minutes, sleeping with mum and waking alone. No one is here, no worm, no word, cold place, tears... This isn't first time I'am left but other times, other people were. Now silence, I can touch loneliness if I stand up through the sky. ı wanna run away first time in my life. I know this is decision time and it must be tough. I feel a line in front of me, if I am strong enough to cross it, everything is gonna be allright. Yes I know it,but knowing is not enough if you're alone, you need someone to support you. Damn, I don't have one.

DOES THE TIME FLY? Then WHY IT IS TOO HARD?